They all disappear

I sit in the quiet
only the sound of the ceiling fan
the breeze feels nice
it's too hot to sleep
and yet I know I should be.

I made the mistake
of looking at my sisters facebook page.
I know better.

A reminder of a life
so different from the one I live.
And so separate from mine.
.
I remember for a short time thinking
I had met my best friend
linked by blood.

How quickly things change.
How fast people appear and disappear
from our lives, from my life.

Sigh.. I have to get up in five hours.
Please let her not be in my dreams.
Family .. it means nothing but sadness.
Closes off my world again.